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Sanctuary Devotional: A Glimpse Inside

For twenty-one years I served as a pastor. For more than a decade since, I’ve made my living as a writer, drawing on both my theological education and pastoral experience to craft hundreds of daily devotional reflections.

Several years ago, that writing took a new direction. I began writing specifically for those carrying the weight of depression, anxiety, trauma, addiction, and recovery—and for the family members and friends walking beside them. These reflections were written for hurting people searching for hope.

I’m grateful that an entire year’s worth of those devotions, written in collaboration with Dr. David Hoskins, founder of Sanctuary Clinics and Sanctuary Communities, will soon be available in book form as Sanctuary Devotional: A Mental Health Journey Towards Hope & Healing.

The book begins by explaining how this project came to be and the hope that gave it life. Here is a brief excerpt from the Introduction, followed by today’s devotional reading for July 28th, O How He Loves Us.

INTRODUCTION

FINDING SANCTUARY IN THE FATHER’S EMBRACE

It all started a few years ago under the large print of Rembrandt’s masterpiece, The Return of the Prodigal, hanging in the great room at Sanctuary Clinic’s Monticello Campus. As we sat beneath that image of the father’s hands resting on the shoulders of his broken son, our conversation gravitated toward a shared reality: we are both prodigals.

Between the two of us, we have sat on every side of the recovery table. We have known the desperate, hollow emptiness of addiction and the “muck and weeds” of pastoral ministry. We have felt the terrifying loneliness of trying to shepherd others while wrestling with our own mental health struggles in the dark. But most importantly, we have both experienced the Fatherly love of God expressed in that parable—a love that does not wait for us to be “whole” before it welcomes us home.

A COMMUNITY BEYOND THE BUILDING

In our journeys toward the Father’s embrace, we discovered a vital truth: no one recovers in isolation. We were sustained by the prayers of devoted families and the presence of a greater Community. We aren’t just talking about the church building down the street, but the “Church” with a capital C—that great cloud of witnesses who have struggled, stumbled, and searched for God in the same valleys we walk today.

In moments of crisis, when we cried out for wisdom from someone who “knew,” someone in human flesh who had been there, we discovered an entire company of saints. We found that giants of the faith like Augustine, C.S. Lewis, Charles Spurgeon, Henri Nouwen, and Mother Teresa were not untouchable statues of perfection. They were men and women who wrestled to find God within a twisted, fallen world. Their writings have spanned generations because they speak the language of the hurting.

THE PURPOSE OF THIS DEVOTIONAL

This book is the culmination of that discovery. We have acted as curators, gathering a legacy of light from those who spoke into our own suffering. We have designed this resource to be a “Sanctuary” for your morning and evening—a place where the clinical reality of mental health meets the eternal reality of God’s grace.

We know that for the person navigating recovery or mental health challenges, the gap between what we know (“God is good”) and what we feel (“I am broken”) can feel like an ocean. These pages are intended to bridge that gap.

WELCOME HOME

If you are holding this book, you are no longer walking alone. You are being welcomed into the Sanctuary Community—a fellowship of believers who recognize that mental health treatment, recovery, and deep spiritual transformation are not only compatible, they are often inseparable.

Whether you are the one struggling, or the one walking beside someone who is, there is a place for you here. The Father’s hands are already reaching out. Welcome to the journey home.

— David Hoskins and Darin Michael Shaw

JULY 28 ~ O HOW HE LOVES US

IN WORD

“These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.” — John 15:11

IN THOUGHT

“God does not just ‘love’ us through gritted teeth; out of the eternal freshness of His being, He cherishes us with unstintingly affectionate regard. This love, like Jesus’ personality, is full of joy.” — Dallas Willard, The Divine Conspiracy

IN REFLECTION

Dallas Willard powerfully reframes our understanding of God’s character, tearing down the false image of a “morose and miserable monarch” or a “policeman on the prowl.” Instead, by confronting Jesus’ declaration, “He that has seen me has seen the Father,” we must recognize that God’s core nature is expressed through an abundance of joy. This joy was not ruled out by Jesus’ experience of sorrow or grief; rather, it was a steady, underlying happiness—an inheritance He left to His students.

The most comforting revelation here is that God does not just love us without liking us. He cherishes the earth and each human being upon it with fondness, endearment, and unstintingly affectionate regard. This is a love of another kind—a natural outflow of His perpetually self-renewed being. 

For those grappling with shame, self-contempt, or the fear of being truly known, this truth is the foundation of health and wholeness. It means God’s regard for us is rooted in His perfect nature, not our imperfect performance.

As the praise song “Oh How He Loves Us” declares, the more fully we recognize the greatness of His affections, the more His love eclipses whatever we are struggling with in this lifetime. Whether it is the darkness of depression, the burden of addiction, or the weight of past failures, His overwhelming affection brings strength for the journey. This love is not fickle or conditional; it is utterly dependable and eternally fresh. Let us long for it, cling to it, and find our strength in Him. What specific affliction or struggle is most threatening to eclipse your joy today, and what affirmation of God’s “unstintingly affectionate regard” can you speak over yourself right now?

IN DEED

Find a quiet moment to look in a mirror and tell yourself: “God cherishes you with fond and affectionate regard.” Choose to believe that He likes you today, regardless of your productivity or performance.

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When You Feel Like You’re Letting Everyone Down

One of the cruelest lies depression, anxiety, trauma, and other mental health conditions whisper is this:

“Everyone would be better off without me like this.”

Most people who are carrying these heavy burdens already know their struggles affect the people they love. They see the worry in a spouse’s face. They notice parents who never seem to stop watching them. They hear the exhaustion in a friend’s voice or feel guilty that their children have learned to tiptoe around difficult days.

You don’t need anyone to tell you your suffering has ripple effects. You already know.

Many people living with depression or chronic anxiety carry two burdens at the same time. They bear the weight of the illness itself—and the crushing guilt of believing they are disappointing everyone around them.

It can feel as though you’ve become the string someone keeps pulling on in a family mobile. You didn’t ask for this. You didn’t choose this. Yet every difficult day seems to make everyone else’s world wobble too.

That can become almost unbearable.

You may find yourself apologizing for existing. Saying you’re sorry for another difficult morning. Sorry for another panic attack. Sorry for canceling plans. Sorry for needing help. Sorry for not being who you used to be.

But hear this carefully:

Your illness is not your identity.

Your diagnosis is not your value.

And your difficult season does not diminish your worth in the eyes of God.

Jesus never treated hurting people as inconveniences. He never rolled His eyes at the weary. He never shamed the anxious, the broken, or the exhausted for requiring compassion. Again and again, He drew near to those who believed they had become too much for everyone else.

He still does.

The people who love you may indeed be affected by what you’re carrying. That doesn’t mean you’ve failed them. It means you’re walking through a painful reality together. Love has always worked that way. Families rejoice together, grieve together, heal together, and sometimes simply survive together until brighter days come.

Please don’t mistake needing help for being a burden. Those are not the same thing.

Sadly, some people who turn to faith communities for support encounter misunderstanding or simplistic advice that leaves them feeling even more ashamed. They are told they simply need more faith, more prayer, or more discipline, as though clinical suffering could be solved by trying harder.

Jesus never approached people that way. He met them with compassion before correction. Presence before answers. Grace before expectations.

Again, He still does! 

If you’re struggling today, know this: there is zero condemnation from the heart of God toward you. You are not His disappointment. You are His beloved child, walking through a difficult medical, emotional, and spiritual journey in a broken world.

In Sanctuary Devotional, David Hoskins and I write often about the beautiful partnership between sound clinical care and deep spiritual formation. God often works through counselors, physicians, treatment teams, supportive families, faithful friends, and daily rhythms of grace. Healing rarely happens in isolation.

So if today you feel like you’re letting everyone down, stop for just a moment. Take a slow breath.

The people who love you don’t need you to be perfect. They need you to keep taking the next faithful step.

And God?

His hands are still big enough to hold you—even on the days when you feel too heavy to hold yourself.

Darin Michael Shaw, MDiv, MA, is a collaborative writer, researcher, and veteran of over twenty years in pastoral ministry who has navigated his own seasons of brokenness to find a deeper identity as a beloved son of God. Along with David Hoskins, he is the co-author of the soon-to-be released daily devotional, Sanctuary Devotional: A Mental Health Journey Towards Hope & Healing, COMING FALL 2026.